This cake has a dense, intense and delicious dough. But the best thing without a doubt is the icing. The mixture of cashew paste with the blueberry powder, not only results in a spectacular intense purple color, but also creates a mixture of excellent flavor and texture, with a creaminess that melts in the mouth and that is the perfect complement to this spelt sponge cake. You can substitute blueberry powder for blueberry puree or for puree or powder of any other fruit you like.
This cake, as small and simple as it looks, brings me back bitter memories. It has been difficult for me to write about this, because it is a very personal and delicate matter, but in the end I have decided that I want to do it. I want to do it because expressing things around here about my life has become a habit and also because I consider it part of closing events in my life and leaving them behind.
I have also decided to talk about it in a post, because it is an issue that I think should be normalized and which I do not understand because it involves so much secrecy in many cases. I perfectly understand women who do not want to tell it, but the lack of information and the little that is said about these topics, in my case, has made the experience much harder than it could have been and has made me feel infinitely alone with my sorrows and my feelings.
I made this cake when I was pregnant. I still didn’t know at that time. And I suppose that since I write it in the past tense, you have already understood that I lost it. It was a miscarriage that I had a few weeks ago. Women who have been through this already know what it feels like. Apparently there are many, at least that is what I have read since it happened to me in the scientific community. Statistics say that 1 in 5 pregnancies will end spontaneously. They seem like a lot right?
Me, in my infinite innocence on the subject, because I had never been interested in looking for information on this subject (let’s be honest, who does it voluntarily?) And because I did not know of cases around me, it did not even cross my mind This possibility. So you can imagine the immense slap in the face that I took with me when all the illusion I had suddenly was gone without me being able to do anything.
Grief and bad times are hard to avoid after this kind of event. But I certainly think they could be mitigated if this issue were more normalized. At the very least, the disappointment wouldn’t be so great. And above all, the process that follows would be much less harsh if it were discussed openly. When my mother died, I spoke about it openly around here, I told all my friends, colleagues, etc. All with great normality and I am 100% that the support of those around us helps a lot to overcome the pain. It helped me.
EIn this case, I have not told almost anyone. The closest family and two friends know about it, that’s it. I did not see myself able to tell anyone else because I have the feeling that it is a taboo topic. So I have spent weeks in absolute solitude and without sharing the pain with almost anyone. I think it was a big mistake, and I am remedying it now. There is nothing to be ashamed of if this happens to us, it is not our fault and it should not be any secret. In the end, I have the feeling that society is always looking for ways to make women suffer in silence.
I feel better by putting my two cents and trying to normalize these issues, at the end of the day it is my life. My life and everyone’s life is this, vacations, happiness and cakes that go well and others that go bad. I also want you to know that I am fine now, little by little recovering my mood and everything going back to normal. I will never forget the experience and what is worse, I will never be able to remove the fear from my thoughts and the fear that it could happen to me again. But, although I often doubt it myself, I am a brave and fighter woman. Life hasn’t gotten me down yet, I just hope it stops trying for a while :)/p>
Thank you for reading me and for the supportive comments from my wonderful readers that I know I will receive. And my support to those who have gone through the same thing, we are strong and almost indestructible !! And above all, above all: it was NOT your fault/p>
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Spelt almond cake with cashew and blueberry icing
Refined sugar-free spelled sponge cake with a creamy and delicious glaze based on freeze-dried cashew paste and cranberry powder.
- FOR THE CAKE:
- 75 g butter (at room temperature)
- 60g maple syrup
- 1 teaspoon vanilla extract
- 3 eggs
- 120 g spelt flour
- 30 g almond flour
- 2 teaspoons baking powder
- 1 pinch of salt
- 75 ml unsweetened almond milk
- A little butter and flour for the pan
- FOR THE ICING:
- 120 g cashew nuts
- 3 tablespoons maple syrup
- 4 tablespoons water
- ½ teaspoon vanilla extract
- 1 to 2 tablespoons freeze dried blueberry powder
- TO DECORATE:
- Fresh blueberries
- edible flowers like lilac
For the icing, soak the cashews in plenty of water for about 4-6 hours.
Preheat the oven to 170 ° C. With an electric hand mixer, mix the butter, maple syrup and vanilla for a few minutes, until the mixture becomes fluffy. Add the eggs one at a time and keep mixing until just added.
In a bowl, sift the spelt flour, almond flour, baking powder and salt and add it alternately with the almond milk to the egg mixture. Mix everything until there are no lumps, without overmixing.
Grease the pan with a little butter and sprinkle it with flour. Pour the batter into the pan and bake for about 35 minutes. Do the toothpick test to make sure it's baked. Remove from the oven and cool on a rack.
Drain the cashews well. Add all other icing ingredients to a food processor and blend until smooth. Decorate the cake with the icing, the blueberries and the flowers.